Wednesday, July 28, 2010


Its amazing how crappy today was. I don't even know what made today crappy. It just was.

It's become more obvious that I will more than likely sit on my ass for the next 5 months. NO JOB PROSPECTS WHATSOEVER. UGH I HATE YOU ECONOMY!

I'm vomit a little in my mouth each time I see a ring on Fb and every day someone else gets engaged. I have this immense fear of being an old maid...and what is SAD is the fact that I'm in a relationship. I'm such a goober when it comes to weddings and babies. I have the wedding/marriage itch right now and it won't go away.

I cannot wait to get the hell out of my house. I don't even know why I'm redoing my room. I want my own stuff, cook what I want to eat, and do what the hell I want to do. BUT NOPE....Can't do that because I have NO MONEY...because I don't have a JOB!!!

I'm the ONLY person in my nursing school group of friends (there are 6 of us) that has not found a job yet.

$200 to take the NCLEX got me REAL far.....Negative $200 out of my pocket and all I have is a RN license number.

I'm SO tempted to deactivate my Facebook account for a little while. It has caused me tooooo much stress these days. AND without a JOB....Facebook is so tempting. Now THAT is sad.

I've gained a shit ton of weight in the past 2 years. I say I'm going to work out. I don't. I map out exercise plans and diets...and I last about a week on them. I hate running. I hate group exercise. I guess I'll just be fat for the rest of my life.

I did something to my wrist. It's been hurting for the past 3 weeks off and on. Arthritis at 22? Craaaap.

My roots are showing.

I have an acne flare up more worse than I have ever seen in my life.

Annnnnnd I'm done for today.

Vent much?

**I promise a happier post tomorrow.....maybe**


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  2. Let's add that Blogger is pissing me off too. ( The big spaces )

  3. But tomorrow is almost here! Here's to wishing you a much much better day!!

  4. Oh girl, I had a spazz out like that (thank you birth control) a couple of months ago and I'm just now getting over it.

    The good news is, it gets better! You're in a transitional time in your life (which sucks to start with) and in a terrible economy where there aren't jobs for people with experience, much less people fresh out of school. Just keep applying and applying, and eventually, something will happen.

    I hope today is better. :-)

    And PS--Right when I got out of school, I had this overwhelming desire to get married too. OVERWHELMING!

  5. oh hun I have these days too. I'm sure some of this stuff will work it self out, but hey, the only things i can say are the things that wont really make you feel any better.
    I just want you to know you are not alone!!

  6. I'm pulling for you w/ finding a job!! I know all the time and energy you put into nursing school/NCLEX and you deserve a job!!!

    I hope today has been a better one for you!

  7. The time after the NCLEX is nothing but a waiting game.. throw on all of the other normal stresses of life and I don't know how you nurses do it. Buck (my husband) just about lost his mind. However, he got a job that's on the path to his dreams (ICU).. and even though it's stressful still; we tell each other everything is relatively temporary and it will only get better!! :)


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